Holy Grail Syndrome

Sunday, August 9, 2020

You Can’t Heal The Pain In Her Soul

You can’t heal the pain in her soul and her mental anguish. You just can’t. One day when you’re a lot older, you will still think of her. And when heaven will finally take her...

That’s when you will feel her pain and the damage you’ve done in her. Not now. But by then. 


She won’t run to any man to heal her — what your women are used to doing. She hopes you had a blast playing with her heart in this pandemic. May Heaven bless you still. 

Win Or Defeat

The US Elections is getting me excited. Russia, China and Iran playing along with this cleverly as if they have the right to decide on who the next most powerful man should be because, why not, and because no matter how these three nations think — with their combined powers against America, they’re still not beating this beauty, hence, they will mess this one up with one simple blue print. 

Stay tuned. It will be the greatest win or defeat the world will ever see. 

Friday, August 7, 2020

Bad Sign Nite

You will not let me toss and turn tonite. I will sleep with good feelings in my heart. 

My landline rang today at a time when it was busted the person on the other end can’t hear me. My cellphone cannot be reached. You forgot my other number that’s easiest to reach, right now. Is this a bad sign? 

Happy Memories

This is too funny! 

I love this! 

Peach Halves

Dear Papa, 

I miss you so much, it hurts. I wish you were here. The peaches appeared to me today. You used to shop for those when we were growing up to a point we didn’t want to eat those anymore it became boring. That’s how much you shopped for it. Now I am suddenly craving for it. 

I’m sure you are peachy happy in Heaven with The Holy Trinity, Daddylo. 

Don’t Waste Your Time On Ugly Me

Don’t worry, I don’t look like this in person. I am uglier.

So don’t keep your hopes too high. I won’t satisfy your desires. 


Thursday, August 6, 2020

Exception To The Rule

Lady, what makes you think you're the exception to the rule
when he couldn't even choose you from the onset? 
Never beg. Run away hard. Hide. 

Dude, like a heartbeat that drives you mad, right? 

When you almost had her a long time ago,
and your genius brain blew it. 

Only In Your Dreams

Tuesday, August 4, 2020

She Hates You So Much Right Now And These Days

Comments With Google Accounts Will Be Enabled

Your True Love For Delilah

You pondered. If the jezebel hadn’t cheated on him, would he still chase the other? 

Dude, you weren’t drunk when you married Delilah. 

Magic In Utopia

The band, Simple Minds, will always be one of my favorites since the 90’s.  And since then, I kept discovering great tunes from them that feeds my soul to a different place where cool and awesome feelings inside me just won't stop. 

I have always talked about magic between two people since forever but I never truly believed in it until this pandemic happened. I may have overlooked it when I should have a long time ago not because this world have truly justified what they deemed me as... cold, because I am not one to pathetically assume unless I am shown proofs, unless it's proven real. Because actions, choices and what the world sees from the other person is enough to know if you’re the magic he has always been looking for. 

So never let the world blame you as, insensitive. 

And when later in life, you realized the magic in the past, you would want for it to be all real, like you’re in Utopia. Then you realized, where were you and what have you done with your life instead? Or how he lived his life and how obsessed was he to start with, with someone else. 

All the wasted time. 

And suddenly you are the magic because what for? Because he made the wrong choice? 


So I am listening to these tunes I love so much  and as I am about to end this post, I realized...

Magic do happen in a Utopia world you have chosen only when...

There is nothing in the past this world can reference on, as to who he was ever seen obsessed with for the longest time. 

Let him choose from the remaining girls and ladies available for him to fool. All the quality ladies, he can present the world again. If there are still quality ones out there in this time and age. 

May this time, he choose the right one. 

But trust that she will never be the one, because in the real world, it's too damaged to repair. 


I am still dancing. 

Monday, August 3, 2020

Wounds Time Can’t Heal

“There are wounds time can’t heal.” Never forget. 

You don’t give those who caused the pain another chance. In this lifetime.

Sunday, August 2, 2020

Dream On

This awesome game is cool because it’s Liev. Hence, no matter how cool this one is yet is from any other man...

Dream on, creepy stalker dude. You disgust me. 

You Have My Viber That Ends In 555. Gawd.

These Dreams 2020

This was opened today. 
The date on this post. 
The words highlighted (see link below). 
This tune. 

Living the dream. This whole time. It’s all making sense to me now. But I am still stunned. 


Why now? πŸ’”πŸ˜” In this crown virus? 

Dramatic Forming Concept Nite

When life, fate, the past, and present play tricks on you. Whether this is a bad dream from the present within a good dream from the past, or the other way around, or a sad dream within a good dream in the present...

I finally saw inside at present time, the real good player who rolled the dice this whole time when I thought I was the master of the game. 

And I love every moment of this dramatic forming concept. 

This whole pandemic, a friend advised me, ‘Don’t overthink what he is doing or the messages he is sending across in silence.” 

If my friend was very influential, I wouldn’t have solved the puzzle he wanted me to see. There are rare moments when you have to overthink. It’s when breakthroughs happen. 


Only him can prove me wrong. And let’s see if only him can destroy my heart and soul as well. 

Liev, I present myself to you, in the eyes of your danger. I dare you to ruin my heart and soul if you can swallow it, if that’s your master plan endgame this whole time. 

Why now??? What happened in the last...? Why only now??? 

Who Truly Fights In Her Corner

As I started to listen to this tune at dawn today, a lot came to mind. You choose the one who thinks of you not just in a lustful way, not because you see their photos and vids online as pretty or handsome, because you don’t even feel beautiful or sexy like what they’re used to date or bang— nothing superficial. 

Those who worry for your safety, for your health. Do they even know what’s in your heart and soul? Do they even wonder at times if you’re truly happy or what’s making you sad? Do they care that you’re insensitive or numb at times and they’d want to open your heart so much? 

Those who plan on taking care of your wants and needs, even when you do not have the body and looks of Henry Cavill, Ana De Armas or the prettiest and the hottest high class jezebels. 

Root for the one who at any age can love you true and accept your superficial flaws, forever. 

Let’s be realistic. What feeds your cravings, really? 

Because you just can’t wham-bam-thankyou-maam someone  and damage their souls after. 

An advice: play with the right people. Let go if it isn’t real. Save souls. Save hearts. Save lives. There are many hot easy ones who can feed your desires any time of day. And if they’re lucky, you can fall for them easy. You’ve been on that road before. 

Have I mentioned, save hearts? 

I will always be a little girl in my heart. 


Saturday, August 1, 2020




Melt My Heart Nite

Inside this post is cosmic crazy! Omg. I wrote this in 2007! How is this even possible? Honest to God! And outside is his, well... drama. 


It’s the start of August. Is it February, already? That electrifying thing that happened at dawn today means he is getting closer and closer to me it’s scary — that was just a tiniest but amazing of a sample what the quickening means. 

I don’t need diamonds. 
I just don’t want you to melt me with deception. 


Oh, never mind. You break and make my heart glow all at the same time. Can I do the same to you too, right now, please? 

What Is With Sex... Really?

Bill Clinton.
Harvey Weinstein.
Jeffrey Epstein.
Donald Trump. 
Sexual harassment. 
For decades. 

All for just four minutes or twenty. Same deal. It equals to four minutes. 

And you ruin someone’s life, soul and yours. 

What is with sex... really? 

Can someone tell me and convince me in three words? 

August Memories

Are we on bended knees yet in this pandemic? Has anyone with mighty power and the not-so mighty pretending to be mighty, and those who never feared and knew God, saw the profound meaning this invincible enemy slap us with? 

Someone is showing this world humbly, who’s boss. We all went back to the basic. We all went back to embracing simplicity. Impressive patience. Going back to what’s child-like funny can actually save any boring and sad day. 

Are we all learning, yet? 

It’s August. This month should be February to me. Regardless of the bad memories it probably has to offer me. 

I write this in bed, and Starboy just plays in the background. I’ve danced to this tune alone hundred times in the past. Today, I will remain still. But I remember this tune when I spent Christmas with dad in Negros, in 2016. It’s always about him. And then some funny ones this year. 

Vaccine. I am still waiting. Thank you Moderna for trailblazing in the science world were red tape is disguised as protection for everyone’s safety in terms of vaccine regulation stigma, you showed the world your modern and stubborn approach to jumpstart what is unimaginable for the old-schooler scientist tied to... unnecessary ted tapes. You squabble with them not because you are desperate as the world is running out of time, but because you knew the power of science is forever evolving its own capacity to new heights none of them thought is ever possible to exist. Yeah, despite their genius. Maybe I am wrong again. But I love the jumpstart. Safety and effectiveness, I want. 

I have stopped writing like this for weeks I think. It’s February. I am starting again. 

I want cakes. Give me cakes. The heart-shaped ones. 

I am still on bended knees. 

Anyone out there, what month is August for you? 

Never Forget That Deep Power Nite

This power was hilariously insane. 
Teary-eyed laughing! 


I love you but please don't do that again! 


You’ve shown me the most exciting things that you can do you better match it real good on actual game night! Because you might be as boring as how great your powerful skills are. πŸ˜‚ 

Friday, July 31, 2020

If This Is What It All Takes

The failed tests should let you leave her alone, finally. 

Valentine’s Day Massacre NITE

Just because you are making me
laugh hard does not mean I am easy. 
(This is so awesome though! Hits the funny spots!) 

Remember that. 


And who were you banging yesterday
without any safety? Eeew. 


Be A Real Man

You want to protect? Appreciate it. 

But don’t be the deceiving culprit in the end. 


These guys. You don’t fall for their deception. Only Sharon Stone falls for it. 

In the movies. 



You know that guy who in the past, slept with your friends and enemies alike, who were hitting on your friends and colleagues too, who can get anything and anyone he likes, and there’s you who he wanted to be a part of his disaster, not because he fell for you but because you should be part of the misfortune, and you showed it to his face and his hotshot demeanor you will never be one of them, with less efforts, because of all the insults...

Did he really expect you can accept all of it? 

And years later, you showed him what you’re made of still, despite not being sexy, being ugly and a nobody, that he simply cannot win ‘em all. 


Not even, Henry Cavill, dude. 

Thursday, July 30, 2020

Huge Perseverance

I just read the title and already, I said to myself, they’ve been at it since I was little girl. Yes, since I was a little girl I knew what and who NASA is (read: Just because I did ballet and piano lessons — nope, not karaoke...  I was also into those spaceships πŸš€!). 

Today, this excited me. For NASA to launch this, and call this rover, Perseverance, something this huge...

Hope they find what they’re lookin for. πŸ˜‰ 

BBC click me 

Geez. You have all my numbers.

 444, Viber 555 and you could not call. Let's stop this crap. You're genius enough to know I am smarter than this. 

Why Can't You Call Her???

Well, Where Were You?

Home. Alone. Forever. Where did you go?

Wednesday, July 29, 2020

Nothing. Who's With You?


Where Are You At Right Now?

I Love You For This And More

This is the best.

How can this even happen — written in the past and fits in later? 


Tuesday, July 28, 2020

Deeper And Deeper Nite

I didn’t know this guy is deeper than I ever thought. Mostly, what I saw in him was the usual dark knight in shining armor hotshot, king of all geniuses, hilarious friend, him alone is a powerhouse, who loves jezebels... until I saw his moves in this pandemic, from afar, his tactics over the years— who knows he created all these legendary formulas. 

Dear America... 

Now I deeply understand. If you’re slamming this blueprint to my face for me to bend the knee...

Already I did, a very long time ago. Were you deep enough to ever see that? At all? 

I still wish you have a nice life. 

Thunder and Lightning, 

Iron Dome. 


I will not ask you what your endgame is on all of this drama. No worries. 

“That’s Me Nite”

All the... “That’s Me” connection, though! 

Hilarious! πŸ˜‚πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ˜‚πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ˜‚

Let Me Rest, Please πŸ˜‚

I have a scratching and throaty voice this week from constant laughing. 

May I rest on Wednesdays and Thursdays, please? 


Thunder In The Heart Nite

Is the rain outside killing anyone out there softly right through your heart and soul because you looked for someone today and no one’s there? 

No one called. And one is nowhere to be found because she can’t recognize anything solid. 


When you miss someone so much but she can’t ever be a mistress. 


What Will You Do?

When ‘I Love You’ isn’t 143 anymore, when only two can create new codes alternatively, and it’s been over ten years of being so far away. You just seriously tweet you’re in love with someone, because your voice can’t be heard. 

If it’s all real, at all, what will you do to your lives to make up for the lost times and make this last? 

Edited: Italian Job Nite

His Forever

Don’t trust a man who pursue you secretly and relentlessly and tells you this and allegedly serious, while he tells the world his wife is his...


Alone But Not Lonely

I had a Zalora order since 12 of a forgotten month. The order was supposed to come from Singapore. It has not arrived yet. 

Alone but not lonely. πŸ˜‚

Excess: I have forgotten how San Miguel tastes like. Email me. 


No Call, No Lovin. 😚

I craved for my fave Volkonskaya cakes. Alone. No, I haven’t tasted this yet. 

No call. No love. 

Italian Job Nite

I still can’t get over this one from yesterday.  That restaurant scene with two of the men I trusted my deep dark secrets with. ROTFL. 

It led me as well, to, of course, this gorgeous guy’s sexy selfie to maybe think he can be a hot Italian mob boss (you know, those with priests as their confidant?) too as an identity or midlife crisis. πŸ˜†πŸ€£πŸ˜‚

#551 πŸ˜‚
#IdentityCrisis πŸ˜‚
#MidlifeCrisis 🀣

Monday, July 27, 2020

The Kingdom 546

Omg. This guy. 
This tune has been her  fave since college. Damn it. He really knows the key to the kingdom. 

Her defeat is near. Heaven help her. 


No wonder he never chose her back in the day. She’s not a beauty queen and a nobody. She honored the Jezebels, Salomes, and Delilahs with supposedly hearts of gold instead. πŸ˜”

America #549

Omg, this was in 2010. He knew the whole time?! 

Destiny is playing tricks on her again. This time around, this guy’s cosmic spell is stronger more than ever. She must run away and hide again. 


Things are slowly forming the big picture now. And as always, she refuses to see and trust it. 


His High School Daft Punk Move Nite! πŸ˜‚

My mouth and tummy hurt from laughing. 


Yeah. Because his Daft Punk move is so high school! Go get your Starboy training first! 

You’re So Vain

Hey you, 

This is you. 
And some men’s wives. 


Impress Me, Profoundly

Be The First Option And Not His Last

Choose the one who, in his lifetime and from the onset when you appeared in his life and onwards, regardless of the ladies involved since, he chose you amongst all of them. 

Not the man, who just realized later, it has always been you. 


She realized. Never be the last option and end up in a horror story. 


Sunday, July 26, 2020


Sleepless nites. 4:04

Can’t be written, the hidden meanings. 
This is brilliant. Hahaha! 

πŸ“·: 🀐 it’s best to shut the mouth. πŸ‘„πŸ€£πŸ˜†πŸ˜‚


Goodnite. 😴 

Daft Punk Nite

Brilliant. πŸ˜‚πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ˜‚πŸ™ŒπŸΌ 

Daft Punk, but of course! 

Inside And Out Nite

Impressive. πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ˜πŸ˜˜

Love in...
Love out. 

Scandalous Earthquake Nite

If my memory serves me right, I thought I felt there was an earthquake at 2:51 AM today! I could have sworn there was! 

This made me laugh so hard. Awesome play, damn it! πŸ˜‚πŸ€£πŸ˜‚πŸ™ŒπŸΌ


The scandal in the background of some lady watching some loud vids on her smartphone. πŸ˜‚πŸ€£πŸ˜‚

South And The Rain On Her Face Nite

This led her to 6:11... ROTFL! One of the best play today!  

This was one conceit of his she was tossing and turning for, for the longest time, as this was one he was masking, she wondered forever. Now she knows. And when you turn 42, or maybe forty-five, when this pandemic blows over, and the vaccine is available... 

Will you and her be using a compass to go 
South? You have got to guide her and use that tool, as she does not want to be the babe getting lost in  the woods. And instead she wants to gloriously feel the rain on her face!  πŸ˜‚πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ€£ But a huge NO on the first option. No way. 


This is her response. Let’s see your high school move on this! Hahaha! 🧭 

Saturday, July 25, 2020

This Is Not A Love Story Nite

He knows her passwords. 
He knows who she talks to daily. 
He knows the movies and music she watches and listens to.
He is that great, that even when her home phone gets busted or her electric kettle is acting weird at times, she probably is blaming him in her head. No she’s not paranoid. Like I said, he is that great. 
He isn’t that great to her, not because she’s never known great men. He is that man like in the movies. No, she doesn’t want to feed his ego to heaven and satisfy him like he is the world’s Henry Cavill. No. He is already conceited on his own. So no. πŸ€΄πŸ»πŸ€›πŸΌπŸ‘ΈπŸ» He even wants her to admit she likes this game. πŸ™„πŸ˜

He knows her every move. One time she just moans a little she was tired, he sends a signal she sounded horny to him. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ 

He is everywhere. Notifications too. And only him and her will ever know. Because he will never be proud of her. 

He annoys her with codes that will daily and forever remind her of him, in this pandemic. Nice and clever move, to maybe one day reach to his one and only goal — to wreck a part of her. 

And she realized,  on all messages sent across, he uses her very own lines as well, to counter or in response to her current blog posts. That’s how he twists things around to make it look like....... she’s the actual player in this story...... because of her crazy, corny and dramatic lines. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ Have I said, he is that greatly cunning? πŸ™„ 

Even a simple line from her back then like...

“Who’s with you?”  (Your Worst Enemy) 
“What did you delete?” (she hates viber than the green app) πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ˜‚πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ˜‚πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ˜‚
“Why don’t you find out.” 

These are just some he can amazingly and hilariously connect to some of her old yet meaningful blog posts. 

And the hilarious, ‘My Next Mel Gibson’ blog post he leads to his own sexy and gorgeous selfie he sent to her one night! πŸ˜‚ She laughed hard! 

Or that one time she said there’s no need for sweet lies, he linked it to the blog post ‘Saved Myself’. πŸ˜‚

Or, ‘VTO” to “How long...blah?” LOL!!! 

‘So She Let Go’ to 3:49 πŸ˜‚πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ˜‚

‘Live To Tell The Story’ to 4:45 πŸ˜‚

‘Smart Man’ to “Research on how blah blah, before you blah blah” HAHA

‘She Pretends’ to 5:46 πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

‘Democracy In My Heart” to 4:18 

‘Powerful Perverted Assholes’  A group of men that connects to one of my fave countries. πŸ˜†πŸ€£πŸ˜‚πŸ€£πŸ˜‚ 

‘Once A Playboy, Always A Playboy and Go Bother Your Naked Girls’  to 8:34 πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ™ŒπŸΌ

‘Beautiful Ordinary Life’ to 4:54 HAHA πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ™ŒπŸΌ 

Yeah. Like high school kids. In the time of Corona virus. And at their age. He annoys her, and she giggles. No wait. She laughs hard. πŸ˜‚ But that does not mean she is not hiding anymore. No way. 

She even charts and organize them almost daily, more than what she does at work. πŸ˜‚ That’s how hilarious this game is all about. 

But she wonders, who else is he doing this kind of game with since and are they able to decipher his codes too in the same manner that she ever did. Or were they able to even notice if he ever did? Because she noticed this game years back or recently and she didn’t want to assume until recently when it would just lead her to... his trademark moves. 

Because trust that, she deciphered everything since lockdown and it annoyed her so much at first she didn’t want to play his game and tried to ruin it all for him so he’d stay away. 

Don’t worry, this will not give her a mental illness one day. It takes two to tango and slam that thunder hard, right? 


You think they will end up together because of this unparalleled connection? Romeo and Juliet failed. Don’t forget. And this connection happened a long time ago on MSN Messenger and her blog but still, he didn’t choose her, he never chased her. So don’t keep your hopes high in the time of social media where porn, hot and gorgeous girls are all over his space, everywhere. 

This is his boredom syndrome. She is his... victim. 

Deep, right? 

Once A Playboy, Always A Playboy

No, I don’t trust you. It will never work. No matter what you do and say. 

I can see the future and I will end up being miserable. 

Beautiful Ordinary Life

Forgive me, I am not a ‘shrimp’. 

I am just a beautiful Israeli Pegasus from Russia
who lives a boring and ordinary life, 
whose body is not fully developed. 
A commoner. 

Go Bother Your Naked Girls On FB And Leave Me Alone

I cannot compete with their hotness and sexiness!!! You are site crawling my site while you bang your woman or your fubus???  Leave me alone FOREVER.

They will keep you alive, for sure! 

Thursday, July 23, 2020

Man Up And Call

When he amazingly, hilariously, impressively, cleverly and wittily connect your fourteen-year blog posts to an over a year chat history with you, you wonder how long he had studied you this deep because he profoundly knows what you want, the color of your soul, the depths of your mind, the beating of your heart, even with a lame text moments, or mess up and ruin the essence of your meaningful posts with lame sexy words just to make you laugh...

This effort, for a long time, you wonder what he wanted in return, or how touching for him to show you, this is how much he is into you, profoundly or maybe he is just this bored. 

Whatever it takes, right, dahlin? πŸ˜‚πŸ˜˜❤️πŸ˜πŸ•΅πŸ»‍♂️🀴🏻 


If this is the creepy stalker dude at work who played with this whole thing, because the original Liev never called at all, you think I will fall for you after? No way. This is making me fall hard for Liev, I thank you for the efforts still. 

And to Liev, 

If this was you, without a call still, your efforts will go in vain. Trust me. I am NY. I am firm on my principles, you should know that by now. What is fun with coding without the old school communication. 

πŸ’€ 😴

Wednesday, July 22, 2020

Snowden And Russia

I am watching the 2016 film, Jason Bourne, then again. Lara Croft is in it (read: Alicia Vikander) and the CIA as always. 

These days and in this world, it’s rare to have a clever mind where you can create a whole story out of what was written or enacted in the past to encode and decode months or years later. And most clever when there was never a verbal agreement between two people, and just like that silently, you can send a signal or message to and from, and both of you will create either some magical or hilarious moments or both. 

But note that, this is only exciting when you both are into each other. Otherwise, it’s just another lonely Snowden, only Russia is able to truly accept. πŸ˜‰ 

Bam Aquino πŸ˜‚

Liev playing in the last 48 hours was hilarious and witty! Two examples were: Tuesday Blow (do you even know how to) and Aquino (Bam -that guy) πŸ˜†πŸ˜‚πŸ€£ 

And his drama today to let his goal survive. πŸ˜‚ I cannot with this guy hahaha

Lemme Eat First

Enormous Drama

I will forever miss you, Liev — The dark knight, the diablo, the nsa, jason bourne, ray-ray. Damn. All of the above. This feeling despite all the disappointment. 

While I’m only a goddess. πŸ˜‚ 


Thank you for all the things you taught me in this lifetime. I hope you have also learned a lot from me despite me just being clever and smart as opposed to you being the king of all geniuses. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜˜ Most of all, the ENORMOUS  hilarious drama without love from you. πŸ˜‚ 

#IWillForeverHideStill 😘

Don’t Drama Me @ 4:01

Drama me, more! Seriously. πŸ˜‚ Sweet words feel great too you know when the words uttered are...



The working girls “make love” moment was never a sweet lie. The “bang” was real — only thing that’s real. 


Epic Fail NITE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah. A lady like her in this whole story, and all he ever told and asked her was when to BANG him and arrogantly tells her how he can destroy her bloody mary...

But in just one minor moment he tells her how he can MAKE LOVE to working girls. 


Ultimate failure must be your fortΓ©, huh? 


@ 2:15

Go find a younger sl*t to bang. They’re all over your FB space, those you allow to view your page. And Tiktok girls too. 

Your favorite girls. 

Forget-Me-Not Nite

Good tip. 
On the same wavelength. 
Years later still — a unique thing. 

But he never have given her a priceless equity on a pedestal other than being Russian-ly compatible with her. Because he is bored in this pandemic. Where was he when he was busily not able to prioritize her, even on her favorite holidays? πŸ™„ 



Observe him after this pandemic blows over. He will find a younger sl*t. 

“Like A Heartbeat That Drives You Mad”

The moment she pretends she’s stupid and vulnerable, that’s the most crucial part. 

She is waiting for you to either act class or self-destruct. Then she decides, most importantly. 


“Players only love you when they’re playing.
When the rain washes you clean, you’ll know. You’ll know. 
Thunder only happens when it’s raining.
Now here I go again, I see the crystal vision. 
I keep the vision to myself.” 

Leighton Meester, my fave beauty, her version
is wickedly great! ❤️ 

Mark All Her Words

This guy right here, is her favorite guy of all time next to her father. And since her father is gone, go figure what that means. 

And no matter how much she can hate or be annoyed by him — this is her, being real. 


To the man who pretends to be Russian, just because she said this, does not mean she is ever meeting you again. Because of how much you mean to her at the same time how much you have disappointed her in this lockdown, and how crazy and unparalleled you both can be as twin flames (maybe)... 

She will hide forever. Mark her word. 

Oh by the way, will you stop loving Jezebels , Salomes, Delilahs with fake hearts of gold, please? And never end up a dirty old man, okay? Never let my glorification on you go in vain, not that it matters. 

Tip: Let a goddess wake you up sometimes. 



Tuesday, July 21, 2020

24-Hour And More Spirituality, This Dude

The NSA was drunk for 24 hours or more. 
Crawled with hilarious and very witty blueprints here. 
Just because she’s laughing
hard does not mean it’s okay between you and her. 

When are you calling, NSA? 

And when are you treating her with priceless equity and 
not just letting things happen on your own terms? 
Because the more you ignore her wants and needs (FB and call) the more you’re losing her and the more she’s annoyed. 


Sounds Familiar?

She’s done. Period. And she made a choice. And it’s not you. 

Sounds familiar??? 

Too Late For Everything, Dude

It’s too late for everything. Where are you basing this now? Looking at fake pictures? Superficial. As always. 

You couldn’t even call her. 

Monday, July 20, 2020

When I looked Okay

Remembering when I looked okay. 
Now I look like hell. And that's okay. 

March 10th, 2020. 

Untouchable NY

Ladies and gentlemen...There’s ugliness today.
But peace is in the heart. 
Always seek and demand for something priceless.
Be priceless. 
So no one can afford you. 

They say, know your worth.
So never be available to players. 
Let the real good guy be the only one to treat you like meat, even when you aren’t a beauty queen, when you’re plane jane, than be loved for being a jezebel, a Delilah, or
Salome. πŸ˜‚ 


πŸ“·: Late aftie today. In bed. Wearing my fave lippie. Alone.