The Goddess Syndrome

Nikko Yap

2012-01-02T09:17:00.007+08:00

Soon, this website will have a new domain.

www.holygrailsyndrome.com

Blessed

2011-12-07T09:17:00.000+08:00

Seeing and knowing you're nothing to some or to someone, especially seeing they're being nice to others and to those who tried to destroy you... Stay calm and meek inside.

Blessed is the one who suffers in silence. Heaven knows who to give peace of mind to later.

Real Angel

2011-12-07T08:57:00.000+08:00

What happens when someone avoids to hear your story or simply avoids you, or finds a way to reject you, only to find out later this person is partying with the people who are hurting and bullying you?

Don't fret, that's life, it's never fair. But life will, sooner or later, give you who's worth your truth and great personality, someone who isn't scared to be seen with you, this person who will let you wear the crown because you deserved it.

Zombie

2011-11-21T10:21:00.000+08:00

Some "zombie" is using it the wrong way moving exactly like a snake. Sun Tzu's Art Of War is never about treachery.

It's always about fighting with dignity and nobleness.

Trainwreck

2011-11-21T09:39:00.000+08:00

No one has the right to call themselves the smartest when the whole world knows you didn't learn from an ugly past and is continually doomed to repeating it.

Smart is when you know how to have a beautiful life.

True Beauty

2011-11-21T04:33:00.004+08:00

This man who has traveled to different parts of this world suddenly told me, a great beauty is one that is recognized not just in your own region or the masses in your country but internationally, you know when she goes to the great places of North America or Europe, she still look stunningly beautiful and does not look ordinary.

And from that point on, I thought of Aishwarya Rai, Penelope Cruz, Salma Hayek, Eva Longoria, Dawn Zulueta, and Angelina Jolie.

Practice What You Preach

2011-11-21T04:11:00.001+08:00

It's disturbing and creepy when someone shouts to any social network the words of God almost everyday, hears mass regularly, goes to a spiritual journey and yet this person wakes up and plan on how to to directly or indirectly insult others whenever this person has a chance, or proudly tell the world about their sexual escapades with different people.

I'd rather be judged at first sight as a snob, cold and opinionated and with less effort prove them wrong later than convince people I am a saint.

Huge Difference

2011-11-21T04:00:00.001+08:00

I was brought up by my parents instilling in me to honor any point of difference anywhere I go to or whoever I mingle with. That in itself shows my parents' good breed and class.

One can go shout to the world she's target-shooting or parasailing or traveling outside the country for as long as she wants to when she can afford it and is not stealing money somewhere funding her luxuries in life - respect this diversity.

Another shouts to the world her offensive, rude and rowdy nature to hit out directly or indirectly on someone. Do you expect respect and sympathy?

See the huge difference.

Should Come From Me

2011-11-21T03:21:00.000+08:00

When a story or rumor about me, any supposed decision or line from me is leaked or spread or whispered and been told around... Trust that, a truly smart person receiving it should know...

That the validity and truth and version to it should come from my own mouth. Only.

Enough

2011-11-21T02:49:00.002+08:00

I had been asked for the millionth time, "What is your beauty secret?", it does not shock me anymore. I only go to a dermatologist when an acne flares up on that time of the month. Topical skin treatments is a temporary solution. Tomato and carrot juice and milk has always been a good supplement. Sunscreen is the magic. However if you lack this one great solution, trust me, you will notice you already looked matronly and wrinkled and haggard in your twenties, imagine yourself as thirty something.

Sleep is the best beauty treatment. Enough sleep, that is.

Her Heart's Paradox

2011-11-14T07:26:00.003+08:00

She conceals her heart in places where people don't dare seek. Because they do not want to trace it in places where they think she will not dare go.

The paradox of her life - read the fine prints.

Wise

2011-11-14T06:54:00.001+08:00

Why do smart, deep men prefer her instead? Because her mouth is not where her actual mouth is...

Her mouth is in her heart.

Classic Haters

2011-11-12T18:54:00.001+08:00

I read this somewhere: "Rumors are carried by haters, spread by fools, and accepted by idiots."

I say this is a classic truth haters will never realize it's never classy and it's forever disgusting.

His Mystery

2011-11-11T11:31:00.000+08:00

She's deemed as dangerous by men. Once a man gets in, there's no way out, even when she leaves him. And his life will never be the same again. But she knows this man she can't read, a man she can't be dangerous to, a man who's sensitive to the thorns engulfing her - her pain, a man she can't corrupt, a man she does not have the courage to break.

Because he has something mysterious in him that scares her.

AND

2011-11-10T09:53:00.001+08:00

Crowned and Cursed

Disillusioned

2011-11-05T00:39:00.000+08:00

Disappointed. Big time.

Not Her Fault

2011-10-27T09:29:00.000+08:00

It's not her fault that in her life, many smart people would take the punches for her. She doesn't even have to be a drama queen with them. It's when she cannot be bought, she does not kiss ass, she doesn't have to get their attention too much and she practice what she preaches.

Accept it.

Disgusting, ei?

2011-10-23T08:07:00.000+08:00

What do you call someone that
betrays you for personal interests,
or for envy?

Answer:

The fungus that feeds on the pond scum.
The pus that infects the mucus that cruds up
the fungus that feeds on the pond scum.

Cross The Sea!

2011-10-23T07:46:00.003+08:00

"You can't cross the sea merely by standing and staring at the water."

That Man!

2011-10-23T07:28:00.000+08:00

Click here - Reposting

An Invite To Her Turf

2011-10-19T10:04:00.002+08:00

The human mind is her recreation area reserved for pleasure. Her playing field.

Come to her...

Domain.

Deceit

2011-10-13T10:13:00.001+08:00

She bumped into one of her father's sealed mobile phone bills three weeks ago in one of her visits at her parents' home. Weeks passed and still, she could not get the courage to open it...

As she knows she will find painful answers and secrets in there that will ruin her relationship with the man she trusted the most, her stronghold.

KIND

2011-10-13T09:43:00.001+08:00

He has this aura, character and personality that made her decide, this is the only man she can't insult or be sarcastic to. The man she can't give her bummer retorts to.

A man of few words, never cocky, unassuming, kind yet mysterious.

Angry Naggers

2011-10-07T10:07:00.001+08:00

It's hair-raising when lie-versions of suspects are grander than the truth. The acting of being the victim and twisting stories is superb - a very classic case of defense mechanism.

But what's more hair-raising is when the one who speaks the truth calmly kills them with a positive energy - poised and serene, and talks with great sense -the smart ones will cheer on this.

Finally, A Great Leader

2011-09-29T09:01:00.000+08:00

A great leader or manager is someone who has the natural ability of knowing the good guys from the bad guys even when surrounded by dishonest and corrupt people pretending to be genuine.

Finally, in years, I found one.

"STALKERS"

2011-09-26T02:08:00.001+08:00

Wonder why there are people who give so much time talking about you or knowing your background while you don't give a damn about them at all.

Disgusting when you're the topic or some people talk about you while you don't even remember they exist or you're already ignoring them.

Cured Today

2011-09-22T08:31:00.000+08:00

There are some things in life that can only be cured by a great guy wearing a nice shirt in one of her favorite colors today. Not purple, nor white or gold.

Make a wild guess.

9/11

2011-09-11T23:05:00.002+08:00

Watching National Geographic Channel's

"A Day To Remember 9/11"

Inside My Heart

2011-09-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

Someone told me, to never run away, as only the weak dies out. He woke my true self, where the strength lies inside my heart. And wiping the tears away...

I have the power to face the battle with integrity and grace.

Sweetly Bugging

2011-09-02T10:00:00.001+08:00

She had a great talk with a great man days ago. She just wondered, when the rest of the world thinks she's mysterious, and when she thought she can read anyone, there's this man whose words she understand and liked but there's something about him that's mysterious.

Since then, each time she sees him, the mystery sweetly bugs her.

Powerful

2011-08-29T08:08:00.001+08:00

There will never be a time when something or someone will have her over a barrel. She can leave anything or anyone behind for good reasons, and she doesn't do the waiting game, or will she ever be in a moment of confusion. She makes decisions fast and good. She doesn't dwell on lost great loves but she will get what she wants. She can play stupid to see how others rant about things, things she already have or know - and she remains silent.

If you want to stick around with her, trust that, you're safe when she's behind you - you won't have to worry about a knife hitting your back.

Her Endurance

2011-08-29T07:43:00.000+08:00

Because of her long endurance under difficult circumstances, she has escaped a huge magnitude of distress and extreme affliction. Nothing breaks her soul.

And this annoys those who wish her harm and pain.

Stop Living A Lie

2011-08-29T07:27:00.000+08:00

She was taught to face any reality since she was a little girl to avoid getting hurt, hence, the truth never hurts her.

Trust that, you free your soul when you're skipping out on living a lie.

Master Of The Game

2011-08-29T07:20:00.000+08:00

When you're playing a dangerous game, ask yourself these:

Are there rules in it?

How high is the wager?

And do you know when to quit and if the timing is right?

In the end,

you consider it the grandest of games when no one gets hurt while you run circles around.

Because no matter how you finish first and you left the one you've always wanted,

why get in to begin with?

On Her Face

2011-08-09T05:29:00.000+08:00

She was on the phone with her father today- a very rare event. He told her, "Remember what I taught you, let your "enemies" hate you, hurt you, throw bad words at you or behind you, but never halt them when they are doing mistakes and you know deep down why."

When they were done talking, there weren't tears on her face but a...

Smirk.

Secret Enemy

2011-08-09T05:14:00.000+08:00

It has been said that a flatterer is a secret enemy.

She knew it.

Measure His Fear

2011-08-09T04:49:00.000+08:00

Every man has their own fears. If he let you go just like that and whether he regrets it or not won't matter. You don't look back - he's not worth it.

That kind of fear in itself where he can't afford to let you go because he truly cares, no matter how a devil he can be in other aspects of life, keep him still.

So measure his fear.

Beyond

2011-08-09T04:21:00.000+08:00

Truthfully, she puts wall around her to know who would be man enough to destroy them or break them down.

This way, she'd know which man would care enough to see beyond her attractive looks.

Algebra

2011-08-09T04:17:00.000+08:00

She now remember, her last semester in college, she finally learned to love Modern Algebra, and she sorta excelled in it. Years later, she must admit, it didn't matter now, as she knows in reality...

There's no such thing as Algebra in life.

A Lot Better

2011-08-09T03:57:00.000+08:00

So she's like the moon - there's always that part of the moon she does not want others to uncover.

It's probably better not to see it though.

Her White and Black

2011-08-09T03:54:00.000+08:00

Her personality shines through her looks, like in the way she walks, her poise, when she stares hard at you (which rarely happens), her honesty, her giggles - it's a come-hither over-all-personality that makes you want to run up to her and hug her tight and put her on a throne...and less than a minute after, only to be disappointed by her other side...

Her exclusive, "Leave me alone" look.

Never Limit Them

2011-08-09T03:22:00.000+08:00

When my nephew and niece start to speak their minds, I listen intently, I'm never a pundit. Because surprisingly, I learn new and smart things from them.

I don't limit them to my own knowledge and learning for they were born in another time.

Heaven Loves Her

2011-08-09T03:10:00.002+08:00

When she found out a year ago he was going to give her the push, she wasn't going to tell him, "Whatever floats your boat!" So she had to push off post-haste, and that led her to a better, grand place where people accepted her.

Heaven loves her, big time.

End-Result

2011-08-09T02:49:00.000+08:00

To shut people up - those who misjudge her first off, she shows them her worst first. And later appears her true kind heart.

She loves the end-result each time she proves them wrong.

Effortless Beauty

2011-08-09T02:37:00.000+08:00

You're beautiful if you don't need a rich guy spends huge on your beauty products, wardrobe, and elite home address...

Have you heard of beauty with less effort?

Not Who I Really Am

2011-08-09T02:19:00.000+08:00

People kept telling her to stop suppressing her feelings and stop being cold. Well, she told them...

"This is not who I am when I am with great loves!"

Majority Of The World

2011-08-09T02:06:00.001+08:00

Amazing that in a family of pretty and sexy sisters and cousins, all are never promiscuous and are all one-man women, non-social climbers or gold diggers. Because to them, there's more to true love and real happiness than skin whitening products, showing off your Macbooks at Starbucks, marrying guys with names, and social-climbing or hustling.

It's about self-respect and a clean dignity the majority of the world will accept and worship.

Her Exit

2011-08-08T09:39:00.001+08:00

It was the engagement party, yes for the nth time, she got engaged again. Until she walked out and bailed out on him again - the same guy who had been patient with her for the longest time. She ran far, really far, and reached out to some crazy person to take the anger, pain, and lies away from her. And went to watch the golden hour alone somewhere thinking how she put him to the hurt locker.

For her, there can only be one man in her heart. Only one.

Life Stopped Being A Party

2011-08-02T11:18:00.002+08:00

She Missed...

-Playing the piano

-Ballet dancing

-Running around USC Girls' High's quadrangle in the rain her uniform soaking wet with "This Used To Be My Playground" as the soundtrack

-Sitting on the tip of a dry stone dike at this beach at night on a full moon listening to Enigma, and jumps in the water naked

-Climbing down from the terrace that leads to the garage roof and down to her father's off road pick-up truck and unto the ground only to be caught by the security guard telling her, "Your father will kill me if I let you go out." And she bribes him, while her girlfriends wait for her outside

-Stealing her father's sedan with younger sis, they have to push it back hard from the garage while the guard is snoring in the middle of the night.

-Her nanny who was forced to leave when her parents found out she was smuggling letters and gifts from a guy for her when she was sixteen and each time she goes back to Mindanao in the past, she'd visit her nanny who's aging - imagine the tears and hugs.

-Visiting her mother's estate early in the morning when she's vacationing in Mindanao, and watch the sun rises - she can't forget that nice feeling.

-Going to her father's grand clan reunion, the best! Usually last for a week.

-Visiting her maternal grandparents' grave. They were the kindest and meek and real people she have ever known, maybe she got her kind heart from them.

She realized and ironic that, life stopped being a party when she opted the corporate life.

Obscenely Irresistible

2011-07-29T10:35:00.000+08:00

She's lady-like, she has a regal walk, a feminine poise - graceful, well-respected

and intimidating, yet... she's not one of those girls who'd shrieked,

"Oh my gosh, I love your purse where did you buy that?!"

When you get to know her, she's one of the guys, she's your buddy,

she's crazy funny, she has hair-raising retorts that imply coolness and intelligence.

While the rest loves Twilight or the Titanic, she digs The Godfather, Scarface, Clear and Present Danger, Spy Games and Schindler's List.

And due to that,

first-rate men find her

enticingly unconventional and obscenely irresistible.

Return

2011-07-26T09:50:00.000+08:00

She's missing her past, her high school and college days, the music back then, the real friends who stood by her still, her travels, the family gatherings anywhere- All good things in the past. She misses going back to her parents' hometown - she stopped going just when she moved out and opted the corporate life...it's been six years.

She put a huge smile on her face each time her skills and brains get recognized at work, or goes home from a crazy and fun club party, or after a beach party, but the past have been calling her and memories haunting her for the past weeks. She missed the little girl in her, when she was soft. She needs to go back to those places to reconnect with her true self. Put a closure or look for answers.

She will return to the past...alone.

Who?

2011-07-26T09:04:00.002+08:00

She terribly misses someone else. And she has this music for him in her heart, it's cool like how she'd always feel great when she's on top of the hill on a really cold night or golden hour, raining or when the moon is shining, yes this feeling in her heart she can't explain, it's cold yet euphoric. Except...

She does not know which guy she misses.

The Vodka Didn't Help

2011-07-11T06:58:00.009+08:00

She took her father's P.S. (personal secretary for God knows how long) for drinks one night in the hope she'd get something out of her, this time doubting her own self she's the ONLY one who holds his own secrets.

And over bottles of Corona Beer at one of her favorite cozy bars where no D.O.Ms or crazy young foreigners hounding or staring at her - where she can hide each time she wants to have some drink and peace while in a serious "meeting"...

Her: So how's your children and your husband? (She rarely do small talks, but she has to, no matter how bored she was.) I heard they're in college now and both have turned out smart and really nice boys.

P.S.: Oh Yes! Your father is gearing one of them to take up law and one day work for him. You know take care of things for him.

Her: (Shaking her head slowly and with a serious tone) Even at his age, he thinks he's still going to run things grand? Don't he know I will run things once he's gone?

P.S.: I think that's what he is doing now, making things easier for you when he is gone, though one of those nights when he seriously sits on his favorite chair in the dark is when he knows you're more evil than him and you can do things he's never done before when he's gone. As he said, he fears God, and the Devil is never your enemy.

Her: (Stared hard at the P.S for a minute or two with a poker face but there's a thunder in her heart, not the angry kind, but the disappointed kind.)

P.S: Come on, the entire clan see you as such since. You have been compared to one of your male cousins who was all over the news in the past, except you're female, you can't blame your father for somehow thinking about it, but one thing he says each time he gets angry at home, and slaps the words to your siblings, YOU ARE the one who can be trusted the most.

Her: (Still with a poker face, she took a deep breathe, looked away and took another sip...bowed her head, and stared at the crown logo of the beer and said...) You know and everyone knows...I am my father's daughter.

P.S: You play dangerous games, he choose his games.

Her: I have changed over the years - Six years. You have no idea how it hurts so much breathing with so much patience, proving to him I can be more trusted. I play a weird game of losing or leaving my family to prove to the world and grandma I can blend in, and that it's okay to bleed red, or it's alright to break my own heart. Over the years, you know, it has been a good practice. I'm more sane. It's not like I'm a psycho peeling people's scalp out of their skulls or something like that.

P.S.: I know, but there's something about you, it's your dangerous games that break the soul of those who love you, and often, you're too numb to care, imagine the years wasted those people has given you in the hope you'd love them or care for them back. And sometimes, you are the topic at home when your father is not around, your mother asks us she wonders who or what changed you finally, or temporarily, and one of us had our own guesses, it's the guessing game only you have the answer.

Her: (Softly she said...) It was probably that someone who put me to hell years ago.

P.S.: (With a frown on her face, clearly confused...) No one can put you to hell, but if this person did, well, the effect was good. Can we give this person a medal for it?

Her: Hell holds me to heaven. You do not know that, but father does. Don't mention this to him, it would hurt his ego it wasn't him who changed me.

P.S.: Was it a man?

Her: Drink your beer, want another bottle?

P.S.: Of course, conversations like this rarely happen, you know when you're trying to open your heart.

Her: How's politics in our region, since the presidential election? Are we gearing up for the next one? Hope father has given up on me getting into politics. I am probably not the devil's enemy but I want peace of mind most of the time.

P.S.: He has not given up on that but it's not his priority though. He doesn't want someone "evil" running things around back in ...

Her: Lol. Keep telling him that, I am not sure, maybe because he is aging, huh? LOL.

Her: But his choices in women, or girls... has it withered? Who is this girl, is it true, she lives in Cebu now, this girl from Manila? I mean seriously, nearer his daughters??? Is he trying to feed her to the wild dogs? What was he thinking?

P.S: Hahahaha. Whoever told you these lies, come on, he has never admitted that or disgrace his daughters, he fears you!

Her: You're a wife, a mother and daughter. Where is your stance? Is this about money and profession?

P.S.: I will not be the one to ruin this family, please....I am sorry, I do not know.

Her: Oh you know father has somehow lost the magic.

P.S.: Hahahaha. You underestimate him, he is wiser and his political tactics is grander and awesome day by day.(She moved closer, as if whispering...) He endorsed two presidents back in 2010. Both are related to each other you know who. (This time she whispers more..) Come on, one of your grandfathers was a political tactician to the more famous one's parents, do you honestly think your father is going to go astray??? Except he secretly endorsed the one who won. The secrecy was part of the game, he knew who was winning. You didn't beat him.

Her: (Her face went red, dumb-founded...whispered...) Damn it. Why was I left in the dark. Does mother know? Or anyone else? (Signaled to the waiter and ordered Vodka.)

P.S: Yes. You're the only one who didn't know. I'm sorry.

Her: Why???

P.S.: He likes it that when your family wore green, and just because they're your family, you went there wearing yellow alone with a huge smile on your face. Remember on his birthday he sent words for you not to wear yellow, you respected his birthday by wearing pink, and he wore yellow for you? Forever, he will test your will and dignity and principles at any given situation or events. He is most proud of you.

Her: (Was silent for five minutes maybe..thinking.) He is truly the best man in my life.

She went home with tears in her eyes and thunder in her heart (the painful and happy kind). Normally it would numb her, but oddly, the vodka didn't help tonight.

Does Not Support Insecurities In Mates

2011-07-08T08:42:00.000+08:00

I like that my parents aren't envious, they see beauty in everything. They aren't cynics when people say or do something, because they both know there's always something beautiful out of anything ugly. They let things fall on its place first and see why someone said this or did that. Bottom line, they both rub off on each other the kindness and positive stance one of them has and never salute the other half's probably bad judgment or decision.

And their children and their partners, are doing the same thing.

Old School Galore!

2011-06-24T07:49:00.002+08:00

Three of my favorite men in one movie - I have been waiting for this trailer, it finally premiered.

Why I like this movie:

-Based on a true story.

"Killer Elite" races across the globe from Australia to Paris, London and the Middle East in the action-packed account of an ex-special ops agent (Jason Statham) who is lured out of retirement to rescue his mentor (Robert De Niro). To make the rescue, he must complete a near-impossible mission of killing three tough-as-nails assassins with a cunning leader (Clive Owen).

-Of course the battle of accents. Lol.

-Statham is a man of few words, does not ask questions and of course, gorgeously hot!

-The sexiest bad guy ever, Owen's B-movie mustache??? LOL.

-De Niro in action again - come on who wouldn't want that.

-And there's that classic line "worst nightmare" - LOL.

-But of course "Rock You Like A Hurricane" by Scorpions!!!!!!!!! This is the sh*t!

Noticed it's all Old School? 80's wet dream galore. LOL!!!

The Man

2011-06-19T11:03:00.001+08:00

To the best man in my life, my hero, my idol, the man who trained me well, who instilled in me principles that allowed me to move in the right direction - on family honor, on code of silence, on being a decent girl, on self-respect, on protecting the underdogs and the oppressed, on not selling your soul to the devil, on choosing the right man, and on being priceless.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to my pappy though you're not able to read this. You're my formidable stronghold for eternity.

FYI

2011-06-14T08:30:00.005+08:00

She isn't someone sh*tty that's why she didn't sleep with a loser like him.

GRUDGE

2011-06-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

To avoid opening a whole other can of worms, he denied ever knowing her. And that was his best way out -so treacherous. He didn't know he was introduced to someone who doesn't know the stories - the person merely reacted on the simple fact that she used to work there, and now it caused a confusion within some members of her family doubting she ever worked there for years. Them doubting her now in spite of the fact the building admin knew or her father had some peeps spied on her back then.

She found out late and replied, "Well, he only knows girls with black gums, and hustlers or gold diggers. With his grudge toward me and all, I am so glad he doesn't know me!"

Why He Stopped

2011-06-10T06:49:00.005+08:00

She misses him. Those times when he suddenly appears out of nowhere and opens the door for her, when he calculates her every move while she strides and heads to a certain room he matches her pace and she sees him suddenly standing across her or beside her, when he "stalks" her just so she notices him. She misses that part when he would take the "punches" for her.

And up to this day, she wonders why he ever stopped.

Reflex

2011-06-04T13:47:00.000+08:00

She doesn't shout on the rooftops each time she "feeds" people. She usually let others take credit for it. And unlike some, like cat righting reflex on their part to show off stuff, she pretends and hides what she already have. Despite her snobbish appearance and regal walk, her humility saved her from constant leaking of karma in life.

It's what's in your bank account that matters.

Private

2011-05-26T07:55:00.000+08:00

She won't tell you her life stories because she doesn't want you to feel your life is pathetic.

That is the logic behind, her being so private.

Pirates

2011-05-19T08:21:00.002+08:00

The on-screen pair that I have been waiting for, That crazy Pirate with a compass, and his tricky and feisty girl from the past - Penelope Cruz or Angelica who is a mirror of Jack - his match, whom he trained in the past, and the movie revolves around their rocky relationship as well. And for Johnny Depp to choose the beautiful Penelope for a leading lady--this is going to be huge fun!

Adapt

2011-05-16T01:34:00.000+08:00

Finally seen Hanna! The impressive long single camera tracking shot - the much talked about scene where Eric Bana takes several men in the subway, you can see the full coverage of Eric's kick and punches, naturally done you can't cheat with a single tracking shot - trained and choreographed by Jeff Imada, and Ronan's fight scenes with no stunts as well, no wonder it garnered great reviews from acclaimed critics.

Sequel?

Clear Skin

2011-05-10T10:42:00.000+08:00

Seeing just one tiny acne on her face on that monthly cycle is like being down with the blue devils worse than Dysmenorrhea. Clear skin is the Sh*T! Insane.

I LIKE YOU

2011-05-10T09:16:00.000+08:00

She had a meeting with this wealthy, elderly woman yesterday who reminded her of her mom somehow. They were supposed to close some deal, she negotiated with her and presented the woman her cheapest deal - take it or leave it. Thirty minutes later the woman said, "I'll give it to you because I LIKE YOU." She looked at the woman with awe and said, "Only experienced-been-around-open-minded-people like you can truly say that." The woman said...

"It takes one to know one dear."

Mystery

2011-05-09T09:02:00.000+08:00

She's most wicked when she sense her enemies make mistakes. She uses them to catch the snake. She let the snake eat them. She will celebrate the war.

How she does it will forever be a mystery.

Flattery

2011-05-09T08:48:00.000+08:00

She's not new to this game, that usually a secret enemy is the one who flatters you - the one who unwittingly know that it's so played out.

No One

2011-05-09T08:40:00.001+08:00

She's only scared of an enemy when she sees in them her ruthless and wicked side.

So far, no one has scared her yet.

Eyes Peeled The Most

2011-05-09T07:55:00.001+08:00

The best time to worship her is when she's in euphoria. You don't want to play the classic game of saving her at her lowest moments...

That's when she keep her eyes peeled the most.

What Could have

2011-05-09T07:41:00.001+08:00

He will never know if she truly liked him. And she will never know if to him he just wants to get in her pants.

Their story is a classic case of "it-might-have-been" because he unwittingly scared her forever.

Crazy Love

2011-05-09T06:27:00.000+08:00

Crazy love is when a guy is attached to someone else and yet he tells his best buddies about this girl he'd always wanted to have, this girl who push him around and yet he never gets to kiss her. And when she passes by or when she's in the same room with his friends, he turns to them and says, "That's her."

And they tell him, "You're such a loser, you have all the resources and power and games to play to get her to kneel to you and you couldn't get her still?"

What they don't know, she already told him, "You can't afford me and you're not my type."

Runner-Up

2011-05-09T06:17:00.000+08:00

To any decent girl, when you surely sense he is in love with someone else, never ever give him a chance to make you feel like you're the most beautiful woman in the world. Inside him, no matter how decent you are, you're just a game tonight he will forget the next day.

You can never be what she is to him. You're not the dream girl.

BUT

2011-05-09T05:50:00.000+08:00

She pray not for protection, but to ever have the strength when faced with any "danger and hell".

For she knows, with God, she's safe.

Her Heaven

2011-05-09T05:41:00.000+08:00

You pluck all the pain in her life, and at the end of the day, you will realize you have gathered and unveil her beauty.

Know her hurt first, before you see her heaven.

Being Unique

2011-05-09T05:28:00.000+08:00

When there are great things in your soul that cannot be taken away from you, those are the things that made you a formidable enemy, a great and trusted friend, a fairytale lover, in a group of cute girls, you stand out as the coolest chick with a long cool distant stare and a natural, regal and sexy walk.

Being unique doesn't only happen in the movies.

True and Great

2011-05-09T05:14:00.000+08:00

True love is when a gorgeous, bad guy unconsciously takes off the masks he sometimes wear to protect himself for a woman who is forever insulting him.

Great love is when the same woman suffers in silence and pretends to insult him because "he carelessly went in the wrong direction".

Strong Mind

2011-05-09T04:59:00.001+08:00

She was taught since she was a little girl that honor is not a thing you can claim for yourself. Because she greatly respect and love her parents and their name, she made sure no money, fame, and drugs ruin her reputation.

Effortlessly, all it takes is a strong mind.

Categorize

2011-05-09T04:40:00.000+08:00

He said, "You hurt the most insecure men with your lines. Yet you can worship a great guy." In a cool tone, she said...

"That is how I categorize men."

It's About Time!

2011-04-12T06:15:00.003+08:00

I highly support

"Real Men Don't Buy Girls" campaign!

It's about time something like this becomes loud!

Sleeping Girl - Simple Minds!

2011-04-05T08:49:00.002+08:00

When she dances cool to this music,
it's because this is sexy to her

And because she's no Pussycat Dolls rooter.

Smart Man

2011-03-30T09:38:00.000+08:00

A smart man to her is someone who knows how to get out before he gets in. The kind who does not go around wasting himself with booze because he realize too late he made the wrong decision and searches for the one that got away.

Because a smart man knows who to put on a pedestal and know who to play with.

Bow Down

2011-03-30T09:26:00.000+08:00

When karma is leaking in your life, rather than acting proud, it should humble you.

Haven't you noticed, no matter how smart you are, when you thought you can walk on waters, there are huge deals you can't close, when no matter how beautiful you can be, you still could not get that gorgeous guy to fall for you, you can afford to buy that Bally or Ferragamo shoes but they do not have your size at all, hundreds of girls drool over you, and the one you wanted the most has escaped you...

That's divine intervention telling you to bow down.

Bleed Red

2011-03-30T09:12:00.001+08:00

If betrayal is one's way to success, remember, there are worse scenes to pull you down and on your knees, one way or another...

It only takes little time for the world to see you can bleed red.

Royal Mess

2011-03-30T09:01:00.000+08:00

It's rather glorifying to have two men fight over you. This kind of mess is way better.

It's a royal mess.

Inborn

2011-03-30T08:49:00.000+08:00

A good advise, don't let your secret envy consume you. That kind of stress is going to show all over your face and in your eyes, somehow, everyday.

You can't compete with someone whose phenomenon is inborn.

Her Coldness

2011-03-30T08:44:00.000+08:00

She's the kind who doesn't need to be a drama queen and an outrageous flirt just to get a man's attention.

Her coldness and presence itself is deafening.

Cool Chick

2011-03-30T07:46:00.000+08:00

When she sees some people can't wait to or choose to get hurt again, or makes a fool out of themselves, she lets them be, it's their choice, its their hell.

She congratulate herself for she is a cool chick.

Classic Case

2011-03-30T07:34:00.001+08:00

When a man gets close to you because he likes your elusive and stunning friend, it's not pathetic, it's a classic case which you need to wake up to.

Royal Look

2011-03-30T07:23:00.000+08:00

She fears lies, because when it's thrown behind or around her, she has to prove what is real which defies her principle of "proving a point to anybody is useless".

She betrays herself by slapping you the facts due to one grand reason, to see that royal look on their faces as she shows them what hurts the most.

Amateur

2011-03-30T07:11:00.000+08:00

I liked this part when last year, this amateur, ugly-looking girl bragged to my face while arguing with me, "I have a degree in Psychology!" And without batting an eyelash, in a split of a second, I retorted calmly and cool, "Well I don't need one, because I am born with it, you can't beat natural ability."

Damn, beauty and brains in your face. Lol.

The Reason

2011-03-30T07:02:00.002+08:00

He once told her, "With a man like me, If a right woman crosses my path, when she's the one who can make me stammer- the one I know who can make me fall in love with, I don't ruin it by dating her or screwing her, I leave her alone."

The reason that he decided on not touching her.

Less Than?

2011-03-30T06:56:00.000+08:00

And she wonders how much his brain is worth as what he wants the world to believe.

Is it worth as much as what he has "down south" that he has to waste his head away?

Enjoy The Ride

2011-03-30T06:45:00.000+08:00

Of all the pain she has to endure, it's when she can't integrate her family and personal life. It's when she commits to have dinner with him, and her father sends word she should be with the family for a dine-out, and she shifts plan right there and then, run, and... leaves him.

But the worst is... when another secret guy is there lurking somewhere, waiting for her.

And her best friend says, "You're MOST wanted, enjoy the ride."

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2011-03-20T09:27:00.002+08:00

Seven Women You Can Never Date (Click me)

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2011-03-20T09:26:00.001+08:00

Five Types of Women Men Avoid (Click me)

43rd

2011-03-12T14:40:00.002+08:00

Still haven't gotten around to reading former US President George W. Bush's memoir Decision Points which sold two million copies in just over a month. Me delaying to read the book is due to when this was launched late last year, my career was just transitioning and I've put great importance on my personal life as well, plus there's my family who's demanding for my presence and attention, and a few hours with friends here and there--these great factors I couldn't even fuse in just one day--it's not allowed (imagine that or go figure).

It's a bestseller everywhere. It has gotten great reviews--Nothing boring like Clinton's My Life.

Whether I like this man or not, now is not the right time to say. Nevertheless, will I read the book?

ABSOLUTELY.

Power

2011-03-08T18:54:00.001+08:00

Usually his instincts are sharp, but with her, she has a power over him. Hence...

He hated her.

The Kite Runner

2011-03-01T13:02:00.001+08:00

I've put off watching the highly-acclaimed movie The Kite Runner, or reading the best-selling novel for a really long time, due to reviews, that it will terribly break your heart. Last month, I decided to watch it finally. After, I opted not to read the book!

The movie broke my heart, at a time when I can't afford a broken heart. Ugh.

Khaled Hosseini, you melted a girl's chrome-heart. Tremendously.

Egypt

2011-03-01T12:54:00.002+08:00

My take on Egypt's recent revolution:

-I knew Mubarak since I was a little girl. That long.

-I like that Egypt tried to bridge the gap between Israel and those who hated them.

-That if Mubarak wasn't a US ally, no matter how Obama might have blew the Egypt issue off, they might have pulled off another invasion, well, is Obama capable of an invasion at that point?

-I just hope the next Egyptian leader won't be a religious extremist and will not isolate Israel this time.

-Whether the US backroom hypocrisy and bullhorn diplomacy of negotiation during the revolt impacted negatively or positively along the way, It saved the Egyptians, and the Pyramids (lol)

-Libya is next. Just like I knew Gadhafi for a long time.

Those Moments

2011-03-01T12:13:00.001+08:00

When she hears an annoying and nagging girl who can't seem to stop yakking, she wonders how the girl's boyfriend or husband would secretly want to choke her, lol. It's when she said a long time ago, "I hate naggers, either male or female", that made him noticed her more and deeper. He said,

"That was one of those deep moments I knew you were the one."